Jerome finally got in to a university in Johor. It's a Honest Degree in Tech Management at University Tun Hussien Onn Malaysia (UTHM). Don't know what's the course about but the good news is, he can finally get to university. Hope that he will be thankful to the Lord for all he has provide for him. Too much mistakes in life God overlooked as his love is unconditional. So please... Work hard!! You can do it. It's my turn next year... Creeps me out. But it's gonna be fine I guess... :)
love, remmygoh
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Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Monday, July 18, 2011
I'm not me.
It's been a long time I've not met me. I'm mot me for a few weeks ady. I always do things that I thought that would turn out in certain ways just keep disappointing me. How can I change? Thinking of it. I'm a crazy dumb nut trying to chase happiness that is not actually there for me. I always taught I had them. But at times I don't. And its getting more and more frequent. I'm loosing myself all the time. And each time when I need someone by my side to comfort me or reason it out with me I don't. You are the one who understands me the most. How can just "I'm getting older" helps change the fact that you are my mum, my guid, my consultant, my psychiatrist, my friend. Sigh... Guess age changes everything. I wished that I could understand you while hoping that you understands me more for I am still me. This mood swing of mine is getting from bad to worst. Cause? I'm not sure either. I just need someone, anyone beside there to tell me and to comfort me when I'm like that rather than using force against force. That really kills. Hurts deep down. PLEASE HELP ME.
love, remmygoh
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love, remmygoh
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Saturday, July 16, 2011
Michael Angelo birthday.
Its not Michael's Birthday... It's my friend, S'ng. There's a lot of things that happened between us and him. Truthfully, I've doubted our friendship and I've once dislike you. Luckily, after some time my perception changed. I can say that we are not very close even I know you for a long time. But I really hope to know you better and preserve this friendship forever. Friends don't come by easily. Treasurer them.
It's a pizza birthday celebration in Michael Angelo. Enjoyed allot. Ate allot too... Going fat.... Who cares... As long as we're all happy!:) Happy Birthday S'ng!!!
love, remmygoh
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It's a pizza birthday celebration in Michael Angelo. Enjoyed allot. Ate allot too... Going fat.... Who cares... As long as we're all happy!:) Happy Birthday S'ng!!!
love, remmygoh
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Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Officially yours
12th July
All these years, efforts and hard work have finally laid off my shoulders. It's a bit sad and happy. Happy because I can finally not lay a single hand in it, sad... Simply because my efforts are finally handed to someone's hand. It's my final year here. There are loads of "last year" stuff.... Being a library, wearing school uniform, involve in co-curricular activities, sports day, parents day... And tons more that any student will hate. Come to think of it.... I'm missing it already. It's time to let go and focus 100% on STPM. it's my last hope. This mid term exam is just so so... Actually quite down in it's dumps.... I didn't even reach my minimum target 3.0. I got 2. something ny... Will strive harder for trials... Wish me luck! ;)
love, remmygoh
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All these years, efforts and hard work have finally laid off my shoulders. It's a bit sad and happy. Happy because I can finally not lay a single hand in it, sad... Simply because my efforts are finally handed to someone's hand. It's my final year here. There are loads of "last year" stuff.... Being a library, wearing school uniform, involve in co-curricular activities, sports day, parents day... And tons more that any student will hate. Come to think of it.... I'm missing it already. It's time to let go and focus 100% on STPM. it's my last hope. This mid term exam is just so so... Actually quite down in it's dumps.... I didn't even reach my minimum target 3.0. I got 2. something ny... Will strive harder for trials... Wish me luck! ;)
love, remmygoh
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Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Having a good relationship.
Recently, I've learned a very important lesson in life. It's really hard to have a good relationship with others. We are never created to be alone. We live in a society where we meet various people with various character. It's hard to gain new relations at times and it's even harder to make relations last and work out. I've learned a lot in school in understanding the opposite gender and to respect them. Sometimes a women's heart is even harder to understand than all the laws of science in total. At least results gain in experiments have a certain pattern if your hypothesis is not wrong. Women, on the other hand are a very extremely special creature that it's so difficult to understand fully whats in their mind.
The other relationship is family. I've always thought I know my family members well and same goes for them. Well it turns out I'm wrong. Sometimes when we are too close we often forget little things that one would mind or one dislikes. Talking among family members were never an issue at home. But somehow at times things ruin with basically... Me.... I hate to admit but it's so true. My problems are always every else's problems. Shyks! Why can't I just keep them a bit longer and not let it out that way. After this experience, telling straight on the face really does work better than thinking that he/she will eventually understand. News flash ~ they won't. I just couldn't except what I've done that day that led to such a havoc at home. Instead of going out with my friends i flare out and created a commotion at home. Regret until now. Even though mum said sweet words like "it's normal that we voice out certain opinions in this way" and "the closer we are, the more friction and fights we will get into". I just don't feel at ease with the things I've done. It's foolish and pointless. Sigh~ just can't forgive myself.
love, remmygoh
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The other relationship is family. I've always thought I know my family members well and same goes for them. Well it turns out I'm wrong. Sometimes when we are too close we often forget little things that one would mind or one dislikes. Talking among family members were never an issue at home. But somehow at times things ruin with basically... Me.... I hate to admit but it's so true. My problems are always every else's problems. Shyks! Why can't I just keep them a bit longer and not let it out that way. After this experience, telling straight on the face really does work better than thinking that he/she will eventually understand. News flash ~ they won't. I just couldn't except what I've done that day that led to such a havoc at home. Instead of going out with my friends i flare out and created a commotion at home. Regret until now. Even though mum said sweet words like "it's normal that we voice out certain opinions in this way" and "the closer we are, the more friction and fights we will get into". I just don't feel at ease with the things I've done. It's foolish and pointless. Sigh~ just can't forgive myself.
love, remmygoh
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Monday, July 11, 2011
It's been awhile yet again.
It's been so long since I've opened this app to post blogs. Things were going up and down, facing the highs and lows of life. I've always thought that I was happy. Am I? I'm not sure either. What causes it? Loads... Tons... Too much of unsatisfactory in life that I can endure. Flaws are lurking everyday in life and yet this stubborn me is not ready to face it. Nothing in life runs smoothly. God's plans are great for us and yet I still don't trust him. My faith is just not strong enough. It's frustrating looking at problems that are impossible to solve simply because problems encountered my me were just mere issue above others' heads. So what can I do? Finally came to one night everything blast of. I've released them off all at a time. It's definitely a wrong approach. Shouted, fought and cried. All said.... Bruises on my skin may fade but the deep guilt and stupidity felt are still stirring within me. It's hard to face. Depression? Nope I don't think so. But soon I guess. Sigh.... Let's not hope for the worst.
There's a greatest weakness that I can't seemed to overcome. Perfection. This is the lousiest possession I have in me. Perfection may have serve in some areas but mostly destroying me. Chasing perfection is never a goal set by anyone as we are not God. There's a reason why he is and we are not. But I just can't face failure or flaws. It's as if it never occurred in my dictionary. I just could not face them. A scratch leaves a big mark to me where others are bot even bothered by it. I just want to let go of this in order to see happiness from another prospect. I'm still stuck in the wonderland of mine where I just can't achieve it. I always tell myself "dreams achieved by others are always achievable by me". Too bad it doesn't rhyme that way. I really hope that one day I would go easy on flaws in life and life happy and long. Life really do suck with imperfection. But that's how life it. Live it or suck it! Alright I'm not letting go of perfection, but I will go easy on achieving it. Perfection may be good if it's not excessive. May people around me always remind me how blessed I am and not just looking at the flaws in life.
love, remmygoh
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There's a greatest weakness that I can't seemed to overcome. Perfection. This is the lousiest possession I have in me. Perfection may have serve in some areas but mostly destroying me. Chasing perfection is never a goal set by anyone as we are not God. There's a reason why he is and we are not. But I just can't face failure or flaws. It's as if it never occurred in my dictionary. I just could not face them. A scratch leaves a big mark to me where others are bot even bothered by it. I just want to let go of this in order to see happiness from another prospect. I'm still stuck in the wonderland of mine where I just can't achieve it. I always tell myself "dreams achieved by others are always achievable by me". Too bad it doesn't rhyme that way. I really hope that one day I would go easy on flaws in life and life happy and long. Life really do suck with imperfection. But that's how life it. Live it or suck it! Alright I'm not letting go of perfection, but I will go easy on achieving it. Perfection may be good if it's not excessive. May people around me always remind me how blessed I am and not just looking at the flaws in life.
love, remmygoh
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