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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Issues.

I've never had issues or big scenes in school happening to me. Somehow at the very end of my school life, this popped out. Something peculiar and stupid. Over small issues made big, BGR in school. The worst was I was not involved at all. Gosh. What a nuisance. Teachers have been complaining about boys and girls walking together and being too close. Duh! that's what mixture of boys and girls are for. I mean I don't support holding hands or kissing in school or do censored stuff in class. We were just walking together, some sit together and I admit sometimes some of them were a bit overboard.

The point is, whether people from the same class put 'in a relationship' with so and so in Facebook or putting couple pictures on Facebook is non of anyones' business. It's out of school compound and boundaries. No one except their own parents can leave no comment or have any prejudice against them. The worst was, every single detail and info the teacher got was rummers from students' mouth. As an teacher and a full grown adult, you should approach us and talk to us and get the whole picture before you place threats on us telling us "if you continue, I will ...." I mean, you and I are mature enough to talk this trough rather than to accuse with just bare information on the mere surface. Confront us. Talk to us. Having relationship in this age is normal. (not saying that I'm abnormal) I just hope that teachers would not persist in this issue and make it a BIG scene. For the record, I'm not in any relationship with anyone. Haha. So stop making love matches of students in class just because they sit near each other (not even next to), having lunch together and walking together. How "mou ku" I am. *innocent*=]


love, remmygoh
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I thought I know myself.

I often thought that I know myself well. Of course! I mean who would actually say that "hmm.... Me?? I don't know myself". Isn't that absurd? But true enough. I don't really know myself. I can say that I didn't know my real self as what I expected myself to be. Deep. Yeah. As if there's a confusion in me. To simplify and to elaborate more to it, I didn't realize what and who I was. What I am now is not to my expectations. I thought I was like that but in fact I'm not.

Gosh!!! Getting more confusing as I'm saying this!!! I came to realize a lot of things after a heart to heart talk with mum and Jerome. Had some confessions and tons to digest after hearing from them about me. I always have a perfect perception of myself, seeing myself better than someone else and not realizing that I'm actually kinda bad. Things that people who never say or comment in order not to hurt one's feelings were reviled to me today. Some sort of killing me slashing from within thinning my heart and soul slowly. It's always hard to except criticism. I think I can still take it. But making the changes for the better after being criticized is my ultimate struggle and goal. Tons that I've realized. So it means that tons I have to change!

God, I really hope that you will help me through it and make me into a person that I thought I was. I really didn't know I was as such. But just help me through it and show me guidance and of course perseverance to endure every anger and learn how to control them. Don't let it overrule me. Lend me a hand. It's dark here. Show me the light. Show me the way. Guide me back into the right track. Lead me back to where I am suppose to be and to a road I'm suppose to walk. In you I trust.


love, remmygoh
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Monday, March 28, 2011

Thinking of you

I was and still currently addicted to this song, Thinking of You by Katty Perry. I'm definitely not a big fan of her. I don't quite un and like the lyrics. But I like the melody. I just don't know why. Perhaps I always fancy songs with strong vocals. More to that, Karty, someone who is trying to pull something different and acts awkwardly sang this. Amazed! I'm currently learning and singing it too.

This is the lyrics of the song:


Verse1

E B
comparasons are easily done
C#m A
once you've had a taste of perfection
E B
like an apple handing from a tree
C#m A
i pick the ripest on i still got the seed

(pre-chorus)

B C#m A
you said move on where do i go
B C#m A F#m
i guess second best is all i will know


Chorus
E B C#m
cause when im with him i am thinking of you, thinking of you
A B
what you would do if
E B
you were the one who was spending the night
C#m A F#m
oh i wish that i was looking into your eye


Verse2
you're like an indian summer in the middle of winter
like a hard candy with a surprise center
how do i get better once ive had the best
you said there's tons of fish in the waters
so the waters i will test

Pre-Chorus
he kissed my lips i taste your mouth
he pulled me in, i was discussed with myself


Chorus
cause when im with him i am thinking of you, thinking of you
what you would do if
you were the one who was spending the night
oh i wish that i was looking into your....


Bridge
C#m B A
the best and oh i do regret
B C#m B A B
how could i let myself let you go
C#m B A
and now, now the lessons learned
B A
i touched and i was burned
B A B
oh i think you should know


Chorus
cause when im with him i am thinking of you, thinking of you
what you would do if
you were the one who was spending the night
oh i wish that i was looking into your eye, your eyes, your eye
wont you walk through and
bust down the door and take me away no more mistakes
cause in your eyes i'd like to stay.




......


The lyrics seriously. Lousy comparisons and meaning. But I just like it somehow. =)




love, remmygoh
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Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Looking at the brighter side.

Sigh no more. Fulfilling the uttermost vision and mission, living life to the max. It's a harsh yet beautiful beginning. Life as a rut has turn over a new. I hope that this will last. Persistence and endurance must I face to obtain an overwhelming result. Haha.... You might be wondering what I'm trying to pull right now. I'm not telling just yet until results are out. I don't want to open my big mouth and make empty promises without fulfilling any of it.

Studies. A must to achieve my goal of success. I know I've been rather lazy this holiday, taking everything easy, going at a very slow pace living with no aims and expectations everyday. Must work harder!! I CAN DO IT. I'm still holding 3.5 as an aim and promise to myself to try my best to achieve it!!

FIGHTING!!!



love, remmygoh
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Friday, March 18, 2011

Happiness.

Today is a very pleasant and happy day. At first, it did not go the way I wanted. After breakfast, mum will go out to watch a movie herself and I will go with my friends to the library. I was thinking I will go somewhere more interesting than the library. Since I'm the one who ajak them and ask them to suggest.... Follow lah~ anyways, studying is not a bad thing after all. When I reached, I found out that I'm the only one with Marcus and Xue Wei. Oh no! I'm going to be the BRIGHTEST SPOTlight for the next 3hours before tuition starts.

Luckily I've still got mum. So i asked them to drop me off at Ipoh Parade to watch movie with her. Went for tuition after the show. It's Invasion of LA (I think). Quite a nice show if you like combat shows. I just love the bass sound of the guns and helicopter. Later after tuition I went back to Ipoh Parade to continue walking with mum. Bought a fee things that I really loved. Simple stuff that will make me really happy. After that we went to a restaurant to meet my Aunt from Slangor to have dinner.

Then comes the period where I have nothing to do till 10 (thats when I've gotta fetch my bro from work). So how?? I called Marcus out for "yum cha" and chit chatted. So sorry that I have to call him at such circumstances with such short notice. I was also surprised that Mok agree to come too cause he usually has work till 11. Just at the right time, he is having 10days break. Just the 3 of us, chit chat and send them home and met 2 of Jerome's colleagues. They were quite friendly. Went home after that.

Chatted with mum a bit with Jerome and now I'm typing this. Happiness is really easy to find if you take small things as your source of happiness. You'll never know how small things like buying little things that you like, chit chatting with friends and family and not feeling guilty of not studying will seriously give you happiness. Happiness comes when you make everything enjoyable. It's easy to achieve to some and hard for a lot of people cause they don't realize happiness is always around them.

love, remmygoh
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Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Success.

How do we measure success? To what extend that a person is considered successful? How can be an individual be more successful than others?

We usually view success as someone better than another. Is success measured by comparison? Whether who is richer, who has higher marks and better grades or who gets better results. Is that how we measure the level of success? We often say that "he is a successful man/woman". When we say that, are we actually comparing him/her with another individual? Mostly are.

How do we actually measure success? We can't take out the calculator and start pressing because success can't be measured mathematically. We can only evaluate that person by his/her improvement in doing something and the results of his/her efforts.

I've learnt something when mum share with me what the father said to the congregation last Sunday (I was attending another church that day). We often view ourselves as successful when we make someone else worse than us. For instance, we view that we are successful in a company, getting a pay rise while others don't by being a hypocrite. "a person who make someone else weaker to see him/herself as successful, is a person who is not. We do not take others' failures as our victory but by learning from our own failures and excel in life making failures a success."

Success can't be compared with others. It should be compared with our own ability and status. A person who is successful in all aspects is a person who succeeded from their mistakes and failures.

love, remmygoh
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Lent is here.

Lent. A celebration I've never celebrate before since I'm a Christian. How sad. Yeah~ I heard in church and during Sunday School telling us to keep aside some money for the poor but I always failed to do so.

Therefore, this year THE FIRST time I'm going to really follow lent.(I hope) what's actually Lent? It's more of sacrificing something that you love to do so much (eg: eat, buy clothes, Facebook). It's more of saving the money that you use for stuff that you WANT for people who NEED the money.

What I'm going/planing to do is try to eat lesser to a certain extend with still enough energy to study and give it to the poor. I really hope that I succeed. It's not so much about the money for us, it's more of the heart to give and share as God gave his one and ONLY SON to DIE FOR US ON THE CROSS. I'm going to give all that I can and say bye bye to shopping!


love, remmygoh
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Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Lent is here.

Lent. A celebration I've never celebrate before since I'm a Christian. How sad. Yeah~ I heard in church and during Sunday School telling us to keep aside some money for the poor but I always failed to do so.

Therefore, this year THE FIRST time I'm going to really follow lent.(I hope) what's actually Lent? It's more of sacrificing something that you love to do so much (eg: eat, buy clothes, Facebook). It's more of saving the money that you use for stuff that you WANT for people who NEED the money.

What I'm going/planing to do is try to eat lesser to a certain extend with still enough energy to study and give it to the poor. I really hope that I succeed. It's not so much about the money for us, it's more of the heart to give and share as God gave his one and ONLY SON to DIE FOR US ON THE CROSS. I'm going to give all that I can and say bye bye to shopping!


love, remmygoh
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Monday, March 14, 2011

Am I wrong?

Sometimes I always wondered things that I did hurt others. I just can't read minds ya know? Im just an ordinary human being, not God. But something certain. I know how to analyze facial expression. Through time, we know and understand more. Thats how I grab hold of someone's physical actions. I just can't tahan whenever I'm curious of something and yet I don't get the answer. I know, knowing nothing is better than something. What to do... Curiosity kills yet again. The worst is it's related to you, but you have just a mere knowledge of what is happening.

Sick of it sometimes. But gosh! Really gotta snap out of it. It's hard. Sigh. How can I understand someone till an extend of knowing how they feel and how they will react if i've done something to them. If knowing that it's going to be negative, perhaps I won't do it. I just I'm not always wrong. I need directions. Please help me Lord.


love, remmygoh
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Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Knowing nothing is better than knowing something.

It's always better to not know something rather to dig out the uttermost secret. It's more like digging your own grave. I've learn more than enough this time around. I do hope I really learn and make a change. I have a bad habit. I have this very very deep longing to find out something. Something either a person who is not willing to open up to me. I'm just testing one's patience by asking them to open up. I'm just not used to it. In my family, things must be settled through proper communication, talking oneself out to set free the load from oneself's shoulder.

I'm just confused. When problem strikes, people just choose not to talk about it as if they are avoiding the problem leaving it as it is not perusing any longer to seek remedy. I continuously, persistently seeking an answer and a solution to the problem is at the lose. I always thought by talking things out make a man smile. I was WRONG. I failed. I can't make one smile by talking to them. I will only make things worse and add additional pain by digging more and more stuff out of that person. What can I do?? Just let the person be?? Yeah. Perhaps. I should let that person cool down and think out a solution to their own problems themselves. Or I'm just not the right person they are seeking in resolving their problems. I'm just too unaware and oblivious of the situation and one's feelings at that spur moment. How can I not find out a problem relating to me letting situation cool down by itself and not feel bad about it? Sigh. It's just hard. Sometimes I just wish that I'm that care-less person who don't think about most problems letting them be as it is knowing that things would be solved by itself somehow or rather.

I really hope I can do it. There are more problems ahead of me, more relationships to handle and more stuff to think about other than just the problem itself. How? Let go?? Sigh. Why are there so many things in life that I must let go? Is this the best solution? I have the thirst to know. Can anyone tell me?


love, remmygoh
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Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Understanding.

Understanding. What is understanding? According to Dictionary.com understanding is:

-a state of cooperative or mutually tolerant relations between people

-a mutual agreement, especially of a private, unannounced, or tacit kind.

-an agreement regulating joint activity or settling differences, often informal or preliminary in character.

From the explanation itself brings various meanings. Cooperative, mutual tolerance, mutual agreement and relations. It is very important to have understanding between humans in whatever relationships. It is a natural thing for humans to have understanding in relationship.

However, not all are like that. Sometimes we seek mutual understanding but it just don't come by. It is only natural a God create everyone with different minds, thinking and different feelings. There are times where you thought you've understand but the fact is you don't.

To me, time and communication are the ways to understand a person. Some take years to understand someone, some took a lifetime and yet failed to understand a certain individual in the end.

To understand someone is to first observe. We have to observe his/her whereabouts, habits, likings and dislikes.

Second is through communicating. God gave humans the best tool in every single one of us. No matter where we are from, what language that we speak, we will just somehow find a way to communicate. To know someone well and to understand someone comes from communication. Communication sets a man's heart and internal feelings free. We tend to express our feelings out through speech in order for another person to understand.

Time. Understanding needs time to build and nurtured. No one can just understand someone in a day after their first meet. We change all the time, our thinking, our attitude or our habit. Wr might understand a person a few years ago but it doesn't mean that we can be able to understand that particular person now. With time, he/she might not like something that he/she used to like.

Lastly, love. Love is not just between two individuals, but love between any and everyone. Love is the key to understanding. When you love someone, you will somehow try your best to understand that person as well as possible to please or to make that someone happy. It doesn't matter whether it is love between parent and child, friends, colleagues or couples.

Therefore, we must observe, communicate, take time and the MOST important thing is LOVE. God says "go out and LOVE ONE ANOTHER". We must first love in order to build an understanding between individuals or vice-versa.


love, remmygoh
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As Expected.

Today is just as normal as everyday. Nothing much both in school and off school. Nothing seemed to be not okay. EXCEPT I got my business paper marked. I got a luckY number.... 7. You must be expecting something higher than this. But yeah, thats what I got out of a total of 50marks. None of my classmates got higher than 20 marks. All of us expected this result long ago. Almost 5-6 of us got zero and only a handful got 10 marks and above. We are sort of going against him(my business teacher) cause he is a lousy one compared to paper 2 which is taught by another teacher. We are so going to get higher marks for paper 2!!


love, remmygoh
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Sunday, March 6, 2011

Past motion??!


Why past motion? It's actually "oh si" in canto. The last time we went was quite some time ago before tuition. Derick & Sia Ping was late for lunch. Almost an hour and half we had been siting there. We had plenty of time after lunch before tuition. So we (Marcus, Xue Wei, Wai Wei and I) decided to go for a walk in Dr. Senivasagam park. The only excuse that Wai wei tot was going to the tuition center's toilet to finish up her "business" and acting as if she got stomach ache. We left Derick and Sia Ping to have their lunch and off we go to DR park.

This time, We included them and Mei Shing since we came out at the same time. We had more time, more place to walk and more pictures taken... ;)












Lalu lintas Shell in DR Park where children learn about road safety.


A weird tree that looked like it's made of play dough.


Heart shaped leaf


We might still act young, but the swing us too old o support our weight. :)


Off we go to Japanese Park.






































Let's have ice cream before we head to the next side of the park.





















That's all. All the sweating and walking under the hot and blazing sun us always worth it to capture and watch such a nice scene. :)



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Friday, March 4, 2011

It's over!!

Every exam is a drag to me. It feels harder to study during exam period than in normal days. Maybe it's because of the pressure and psychology stress that made it so draggy. Even though it's a very short exam, 4days but it seemed so long when I am facing it and I felt that time is short when I'm revising. What a crazy brain I got there in my head??!!! Haha... Who cares, it's over. I'm going to continue to study. Time is really not on my side. I must buck up and work harder. Nothing comes free in this realistic world. Work hard Jeremy!!!


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Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Never almost there

Have you ever done something and it looked like it's never going to finish. It's really a drag if you do things that you are not really in favor of doing and yet have to be forced to do it. I'm sure everyone faces this kind of situation.

Remedy? Hmm.... One of it is to take it positively. Take it as something interesting, less stress and fun. Many people would say that. (eg: "actually your problems are just as easy as ABC" or "math is like your closest friend") Haha.... Fact is, it's harder to treat it positively then to face the situation. So how? What should we do? I'm not sure of the best or perfect answer.

But let me tell you this. As you walk along this path, problems are just like humps and holes, Your ups and downs in life. No one faces a straight road ahead o life without any junctions, holes and humps. In fact, you should not be hoping that because only people in comma and never to wake up will face that kind of road. We should accept roads that were given to us by the Lord and walk it. As you walk, make good decision, taking the correct path to the destination. Avoid problems that may arise in the future like avoiding as many holes. Go slow when we meet humps, do not be to proud and ego when we succeed something in life because the higher we stand, the easier we tend to fall. If we fall, climb out of the hole and start walking again by taking small steps and improve the momentum to it's original speed in time to come.

What's life? What's the meaning of living? In christianity, living on earth is a test, a practice to live life as good as possible before returning to the house of God in heaven and live an eternal life. So make life a test. We must prepare ourselves well before we face exams, make the best efforts in doing everything to be rewarded a golden key to the gates of heaven.

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Exams are nearing.

Its on 1st of March. That's why I'm not that active here compared to last time. There are so many things to study, so little time to study. Not much time to revise cause everyone is rushing to finish the syllabus rather than doing revision. I can und because it's only 1st assessment test. STPM is our main objective. I'm just glad that I have good friends to teach me and share their knowledge with me. So if I am able to teach someone and share, I would definitely help that person cause it will help myself revise in another way. I just hope I'll do better after seeing my brother and friends getting their results. I just can't bare to know that it's actually my turn already. Isshh... I really wish I can go through it asap and finish it nicely. My target is at least 3.5. It's kinda high. But certain target and expectations get a person going. Go Jeremy!!! 3.5 here I come!!!


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