Knowing nothing is better than knowing something.

It's always better to not know something rather to dig out the uttermost secret. It's more like digging your own grave. I've learn more than enough this time around. I do hope I really learn and make a change. I have a bad habit. I have this very very deep longing to find out something. Something either a person who is not willing to open up to me. I'm just testing one's patience by asking them to open up. I'm just not used to it. In my family, things must be settled through proper communication, talking oneself out to set free the load from oneself's shoulder.

I'm just confused. When problem strikes, people just choose not to talk about it as if they are avoiding the problem leaving it as it is not perusing any longer to seek remedy. I continuously, persistently seeking an answer and a solution to the problem is at the lose. I always thought by talking things out make a man smile. I was WRONG. I failed. I can't make one smile by talking to them. I will only make things worse and add additional pain by digging more and more stuff out of that person. What can I do?? Just let the person be?? Yeah. Perhaps. I should let that person cool down and think out a solution to their own problems themselves. Or I'm just not the right person they are seeking in resolving their problems. I'm just too unaware and oblivious of the situation and one's feelings at that spur moment. How can I not find out a problem relating to me letting situation cool down by itself and not feel bad about it? Sigh. It's just hard. Sometimes I just wish that I'm that care-less person who don't think about most problems letting them be as it is knowing that things would be solved by itself somehow or rather.

I really hope I can do it. There are more problems ahead of me, more relationships to handle and more stuff to think about other than just the problem itself. How? Let go?? Sigh. Why are there so many things in life that I must let go? Is this the best solution? I have the thirst to know. Can anyone tell me?


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