Easter gift.

Every good friday and Easter is a drag for me coz the caths are always doing the same thing. The same verse from the bible, the same script, the same story and the same everything. Nothing seemed to be different. The only difference is I no longer celebrate them with friends. All went their separate ways after confirmation. God is truly great. Every celebration in church will unite all of us.

I was walking around the church and I met some of my close sunday school class mates. I saw Shari, Nigel and Gabby. Not to mention I saw Dina! It's been so long. :( but I didn't get to talk to her because she was with her family. The next minute I wanted to talk to her, she disappear. Ish!!! The greatest gift was being to talk to Nic after mass. It's been 7 months since we've met. I hardly talk to her on9 or on the phone. I'm glad that she pour out to me about problems she's facing and what's up with her life. My greatest gift was to speak to her and give her some advice. Through that I've learn too when I consulted my mum. Life isn't easy. When all things are provided, there will be a something in life that will bother you. God never provide us a clear path so that we will learn as we walk through the ups and downs in life. I've learn yet again the meaning of happiness. Something so easy yet hard to achieve especially when everything fails. Thank you God for all the things you've bless me all this while. I may not know what's next in my life. But I know it's a road you've chosen and so I will try my best to follow and go through all the good and the bad times. Thank you God. :)


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DSLR! I'm looking forward to get hold of you!

I love taking pictures since young. I just don't know why I just have this interest in capturing the things I see. Haha. One thing funny is, I love my pictures being taken but I hate to take pictures of me myself. I'd rather have someone to capture it rather than capturing it myself. DSLR. seemed to be a bit ridiculous to crave for it coz it is too common nowadays. But I don't have it. Mum was planing to buy a normal digital camera which it's size is relatively smaller, lighter and of course it comes in various colours at first. Then I said I wanted a DSLR. Gosh. It took me some time to find cameras that gives the DSLR effects and still available in small sizes. But somehow I really wanted to get the DSLR. I've took her to a few shops to see and to explore. Finally NTV7 helped me! Haha. There was a segment in the breakfast show about Canon DSLR. Mum was attracted as they were introducing the DSLR. So for Now she is considering on DSLR!! ahhaha!!! I really wish she makes the right choice!! Hahaha!!! Then that DSLR WILL BE IN MY HANDS!!!

~sound so pathetic and lame~


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It's not your fault.

Please. You have loads of problem to take care of. More than you can face. So now I'm telling you that it's got nothing to do with you. Erm. Not 100%. don't have to feel bad. I told you. I dont keep feelings for long when comes to friendship. Coz the main thing is I treasure this friendship with both of you. So please don't take in account whatever that I've posted. It's just a medium to let out my unsettled heart at that very moment. Worry less on me and more to you, your affairs and your studies. Haha. I am fine. Nobody is to die without a certain someone. Yet I really want to maintain this friendship as I've repeated this statement for umpteen times. GOOD, AWESOME Friends don't come by all the time. And of course I will treasure it!:)


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I'm alright!

Theres a progress in school. Back to normal I guess. I know you are peeping my blog. So, no worries I'm okay. Just wanted to let my feelings out at that time. No biggie. Don't blame yourself.

Just take it as I'm the one being sensitive. Haha. I'll be okay!! ;)

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Mr. Taxi, Girls' Generation.

I know I'm a bit outdated. But Mr. Taxi is finally out! And it's MV will be out soon. Wonder how the Dance will look with the song arrangement. The song is okay lah. I mean I can accept it faster than when 'Hoot' was first released. It's just that the song has no climax to it. After the bridge, Taeyon didn't do her usual ad-lip to it. Just plain ending and it seems there's no Korean version for this song. I don't really mind. Japanese will do as just fine. Can't wait for the MV to come out. One thing for sure is I don't want the live out faster than the MV like what they did for 'Run Devil Run Japanese Version'. Oh yeah! Talking about RDR Japanese version. It's simple and plain. But there's a bit add on to the singing. The rest remained at its status quo.


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Friendship.... Counseling??!

April 20

You must be thinking that friends can give us counseling and help us in daily life. I do agree to that statement. But that's not the deal. What I am trying to pull is can I get a "friendship counseling"? I mean getting counseling on making friends, close once. Oh gosh!!! Sounds so pathetic!! With all the social networks and other gadgets to find friends and I am here struggling to make a few!! What's up with that!! I mean I can't even understand someone properly. How am I suppose to find a girlfriend and.understand her in the future. Gosh!! I better go single for the rest of my life. I was so confidence that stuff like this will not ever occur in my life. Haha. It's occurring it to me now. Gosh it sucks to sit with someone you can't carry out a decent conversation. I have to get this out and start having normal conversation without restricting myself to what I say just because I'm afraid I will hurt that person. Then when can I be my real self and stop pretending? Sigh. I have to pick up the ball from somewhere and keep it rolling again. Long time I know. Endurance is what I must possessed. Friendship is something quite important to me. I will continue to seek ways to overcome situation and build our friendship to a higher and stronger state. I must first lay out the foundation and build it step by step, floor by floor, block by block. :)

"looking at the brighter side"


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I'm not angry.

April 20

Haha. Okay I have to admit I was a bit upset. I just could not accept the fact that I'm talking to myself everytime I talk to her. I mean, it's just a simple question. Yes means yes, no means no. I don't need you to reply in a thousand words. But just look away is terrible. Just because of.... Actually I'm not even sure what's the cause. She just avoided questions I've asked her just because she don't feel like answering. I mean isn't that RUDE if you look away when someone asks you something don't care whether it's important or not. An answer stays as an answer. Short or long, JUST ANSWER! I'm not talking to myself! Arghh!!! That's what I was upset about. Kononya I'm the only one you've ever talked to. Somehow lately I just don't feel it. Sigh~ Aside from that, I'm fine. After that few minutes I calmed down and tell myself it's okay. I just have to avoid talking to her so that I won't get myself into situation that I myself am not comfortable with.


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Solved?

April 19

The inner confusion will be solved once I've get a hang out of things. Yes, it's so true men and women contrast. I have to accept the fact that some things can not e done my way as everyone is different. Especially different sex. I will learn to endure and understand the difference in opinion. Hope this will bring us to another level in this meaningful friendship. Haha. I'm so AGREEING to the essay in my MUET test. FRIENDSHIP is essential in our lives. Treasurer them! As they play an important role in our lives. No one is to live without friends. As friendship is a beautiful thing created by God to link humans of no blood relation together.


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Happiness.

It's this topic again. I just ant find the correct answer to this. Yes, I know I should not depend on others to provide me with happiness. But somehow I'm still depending on it. Give me some room to improve. I've been doing things that will somehow satisfy myself, keeping myself active and happy. The only time where I get to express myself freely is at school. And now it seems to be a barrier for me. Am I that bad as a friend an a communicator? I know I might have my temper and moods. Who doesn't? Give me the room o improve by at least highlighting the problem to me rather that allowing me to have that confusion going on and on. If it's me. Tell me. No use keeping to yourself and acting weird, saying words with different meanings. All I want is company in school. Yes I have a lot of friends. But good friends don't come by easily. Friends that I can openly to are numbered. Please don't turn your back at me. I thought I know both of you and I can understand what you are trying to pull everytime you answer me with that certain tone, giving me the look. I'm uncertain. Gosh!! It's driving me crazy. Since when happiness come by so hard nowadays??! I just want things to be as usual if possible. Do what we do most. I just don't like it when there's always a different meaning behind everything.


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Inner confusion.

April 18

I'm having this with me again. Sigh. Im just so confused. Don't know whatssap with them??! Sorry for letting it go here. But seriously, as time goes by, I find it harder to communicate and understand them. I think it's my problem or the prob is with them. Im not sure. Thats why I call it an inner confusion. It's not just that I felt awkward around them and now I felt like I'm the cause of it. I'm really confused coz I'm seriously unaware of the situation. I know you've tried to tell me. But you aren't!! I need o know what's my prob that you have to act that way towards me. Having awkward talks, funny facial expression and insincere answers. Gosh!!! You are turning me into some whacko by trying so hard to find out the toot of the prob. Is it me or is it you??

God, if this is my prob, please help me in realizing and overcoming it. It's really bugging me. I kept that funny feeling whenever I go to school trying to somehow strike an interesting conversation so that I don't feel the awkwardness. But without realizing, that's the most awkward part!


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Cravings to come true.

April 16

I had a crush for Kenny Rogers Roasters for more than half a year since my last birthday. Everytime someone promise to bring me there will turn out to eat in somewhere else. *if you remember my previous post last year* it finally came trough! Gosh. After such a long time. It was a pleasant meal with mum and Jerome. Its one of my best day ever with my family coz we get to go to so many places, from one to another at night.

















Mmmm!! More fat, more calories, MORE SATISFACTION!!!



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This is the monkey I was talking about.

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A new member.

I have a new member in our family again. This time, it's going to be permanent. Its a pupp Uncle Justin adopted during his visit to his late parents. She is from the temple wandering around with her brothers and sisters. Someone said to Uncle Justin "it would be sweet if you pick one of them and raise it". So there came Socks, my new pupp. Cute? Definitely. She is a mixture of all colour a dog could possibly have. Black, White and Brown. Socks? This name was adapted from a Japanese show : 10 Promises To My Dog. In tye movie, the dog's name is Socks because of it's legs covered with white which simply means the Dog is wearing socks. Haha. For my case, She must have worn the wrong socks coz she has 3 white furred legs and one brown.

I was shocked at first when Uncle Justin called me and told me about this new pupp. I kinda disagree with it coz Snowpuff is still here. Another Dogs presence will lessen her attention from mum. What to do?? Tammy and Michelle brought her back, bath and played. So no further consideration to be made. She's in!


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It's a test from God I guess.

April 11

A day to remember. Today, imaginations and plans are swirling my head as if I'm doing them. Plans will remain as plans, imaginations will stay on. Hopes are yet to be found once again. Not now, later I guess. I've got a news that Aufar's grandmother passed away and he could not make it for the trip to my place. I was quite disappointed at that moment. But hopes are yet to e found as I've mentioned, Melvin can still come after sending Aufar to the airport back to Terengganu. Later in the evening, he called and said, he will not be able to make it since Aufar is not coming and some other difficulties. "Okay" I said solemnly and say that I won't be angry. Hey. Seriously won't be angry. Just a bit disappointed after all the all I've planned in my head. I'm always like that when comes to failure. Thats why I said its a test from the lord. I might not realized it. Haha. I will bare with it and look forward for a better opportunity. Times like this will truly happen again. Who knows this coming school holidays in June he is free. Haha. If any of you are reading this blog, M or A, please don't feel bad. It's seriously not your fault that you can't make it. It's just a small lil test God set for me to train me. There will always be chances in the future. I'm sure there will be a day you'll be here. My door will always be open. =)


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Gosh!!! Seriously??!!

I can't believe myself the power of Facebook. I mean. Gosh! Of all people, HIM??!! haha. You must be wondering who am I talking about blaming the awesome FB. It's JG. He added me. Haha! A total stranger adding me. Ignore straight after I made sure that the profile belongs to him. I went tru the pics. That's how I'm sure about HIM. Guess what, our mutual friend was Emily. Thats how I've guess it. What a small world. Almost my entire life without him and just come by my profile and add me??!! Add as FRIEND??!! oh please! I guess a I have a better relationship with any of my friends in my list. You are far from acquaintance. What's the point? Don't try to remedy the situation. No point and no use. I hold no grudges against you as I've never known you. Nice pics anyways in the 'FAMILY' album. Thank God Jerome and I are not in it.


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Prety upset.

I'm not sure whether is it so true so far. I'm confuse within. I'm not sure whether I'm sad or not after viewing his profile. Somehow I just can't believe that he is someone close to me biologically. I know I should not feel sad coz nothing actually did happened before. It's just DC for too long. It's a time frame that I totally forget about it. It's true that we can't remember anything in our first 5 years and so true that he left in my 2nd year of life. What's there to feel sad about? I'm not sure. I'm not sure whether I'm feeling so because I'm suppose to it or maybe it's just too sudden where I don't know how to react. Nyways, just a Facebook add. Nothing big. It's not like he is showing at my doorstep. Ill get over it!!! Stop adding me. Not interested in bring your FRIEND. I have quality ones and I treasure them more than you treasuring us.


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MUET is nearing!!

Oh no! Speaking test is this Wednesday. Gosh. So takut. Don't know whether I will talk crap or shiver when I speak in the exam room. So tensed up. Haha. Chill. I'm going to do fine. My group members are kind of good. There are Chun Sing, Wai Wei and Katherine. So it should not be a huge problem since I've done speaking with a few of them before. Although I'm not as confident as I speak here, but I'll try my best to speak well in the test. Over confidence I shall not! Good Luck to myself!!!


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Happy Birthday 小姨!

April fool as well. This year, nothing so special about it. I find making foolish stuff today is a bit childish. Maybe I've kind of overgrown it. Or maybe theres too many things to take care than to celebrate this day. The good thing is, every April Fool day is my aunt's birthday. So I went over to celebrate with her. At first I wanted to prepare her breakfast and ask mum to bring it over to surprise her. Then mum said she requested for a pencil case. So Kay lah. I'll get a pencil case for her instead. I went to popular to get her the pencil case. A pinkish one. Then I bought some books and papers too. After tuition, I went over. I was truly exhausted. Had a shower and went out to eat. Then went over to Secret Recipe to get her a cake. Haha. Everyone has one. That's what I like. I get to eat too! Grandma said she wants it for her birthday as well. So I can eat again. Gosh!! Fat weh!! Nyways, these are the pics I took.











This the pink pencil case i was talking about.

Happy Birthday 小姨!!! Wish that you and and my lil cousin are healthy!


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